neverman's blog: January 2006

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Monday, January 30, 2006

Part one
My suffering occurred over a period of three years. Schooldays are meant to be the best days of your life but mine were not and the reason was bullying. I had suffered a little from bullying when I was younger but that had stopped and I considered myself safe from such things as I got to the senior part of the school. However when I was in the senior section the bullying restarted and amazingly it was from a gang of girls. It involved a group of six girls even though more joined in at various times. That made it a lot worse because the school had systems for dealing with same sex bullying and also for boys harassing girls but nothing for the other way and of course who could I tell? No one would have believed me and I would have been the butt of numerous jokes. I notice that none of the other posters here have involved the police and I can see why. My parents knew something was up but as a typical teenager I told them nothing and kept the humiliation to myself. Why did the girls picked on me for several reasons I think. Firstly I was in three subjects with them quite a lot and one of them was Food tech a very girl orientated subject that I had done because I hated French. The other reason was that in the summer before it all started I had splashed one of the girls in the council swimming pool and exchanged swear words with her calling her fat and spotty. Also I was a bit of a loner and was middle class from the private houses while the girls concerned were working class from the local council estate. The trouble started on the return to school and at first it was just verbal abuse being called gay, ugly and a wimp by the girls. Then they deliberated ruined a dish I was cooking and the next lesson stole my maths book and ripped it up so I got a detention. At first I ignored them and then I insulted them back and threatened them but they stood as a gang and jeered at me. Then after a few weeks I was walking home and they followed and jeered at me and I confronted them. It was a bad mistake because I was one and they were five and also I did not really want to hit them. I suppose I got in a couple of fairly weak blows before they got me down and then they gave me a good kicking. They did not hit my face much but I got a good dozen blows between the legs and several of them really hurt. I was forced to beg for mercy and they finished by spitting on me and leaving me crying. Now I hoped that was that but my weakness just seemed to encourage them and worse my beating was common knowledge. To make it worse the girls claimed it was because I had insulted them. For the rest of that term they picked on me whenever they saw me and I was kicked slapped and spat at by them as well as having numerous things stolen by them. They did not actually beat me up but the abuse ruined the term. For me it was hell but no one else really seemed to care or notice and my friends found it funny and it made me much more of a loner and therefore an easier target. Sexually they treated me as a nothing or worse called me gay and a pervert. Then in the first food tech lesson of the next term the teacher left the room as she often did to get something and they attacked me. This was fairly common and ignored by the other girls. As for the boys two of them ignored it and kept themselves to themselves and were rumoured to be gay. The only other lad had been teased and insulted by the girls but he had hardly responded or smiled and they ignored him a lot more than they did me. I was pushed to the edge of the room and called a wimp and then to my horror one of them grabbed my trousers and yanked them down leaving me in my boxers. They laughed at me as did most of the other girls in the class and when I went to pull my trousers up another of the girls punched me between the legs doubling me up with pain. My total embarrassment amused them a lot and three times during the next couple of weeks they pulled my trousers down. However I was not the girls only victim indeed they assaulted about half a dozen guys including the other boy in my class. In fact for half a term it became quite a fashion among our year group for a gang of girls to pull a guys trousers down. My trousers were yanked down by four more groups of girls during this time and in our year group I reckon the total number of victims numbered well over a dozen and the number of girls involved well over fifty. Of course it had to end and when a gang of guys pulled a girl’s top so her breasts came out the school acted. Not against the girls but first against the guys who attacked the girl (suspensions and official warnings) and then a general warning to both sexes. For most of the male victims it was no big deal in fact most boasted about it as it was thought the girls only attacked the sexier boys. However for me it was not at least as far as my main tormentors were concerned. As well as tugging my trousers down with them I got a punch between the legs and also no other guy had his underwear deliberately pulled down as well. However twice not only did they pull my trousers down but also yanked my boxers down as well. First was in front of the food tech class and later in front of about thirty people in a corridor. As well as that they stuck things such as ice and mud into my boxers. Anyhow after half term for a couple of weeks they ignored me and I hoped they had decided I was not worth it particularly as they seemed to have boyfriends. Then again in food tech they grabbed me and undid my flies and poured ice into my underwear. During this I punched one of the girls quite hard in the face and got a few kicks back in return. However I was surprised when her older and nasty boyfriend did nothing about it. I guess either she did not tell him or he thought she deserved it but while the threat of a beating from their boyfriends were common from them nothing happened to me. I still wonder why and I guess the boyfriends either did not know or considered it the girls business. Of course the girls could look after themselves as a gang as I discovered when they gave me a second and much nastier beating. They ambushed me on my way home from school and pulled me into a field and got my trousers down. This time however I pushed two of them over and swore at them and spat at them. One of them told the others they should do something about my mouth. They got me down and kicked me about again aiming between my legs. Then one of them got a long stick and slashed me with it several times. I was in real pain but they hauled me up and pinned me over a tree trunk one of them holding me by my hair. Then they got my trousers and underpants down and caned my naked bottom with the stick. They gave me a total of twenty blows taking turns to hit me. By the time they had done that I was in tears and I was told if I resisted them or swore at them ever again they would beat me again and worse. I did not doubt it so from them on I was as conciliatory and as nice as possible as I could be to them. Not that it did any good. The other boy in the class was nice to them and all they did to him was tease him and maybe pinch this bottom and stick lipstick on him. Later on they did more to him but with him it was as if he wanted it and they gave it to him while with me it was a much nastier thing. After my beating I was in a real state and my parents complained to the school however I told them and the school that it was a group of guys from a neighbouring school as I was to ashamed to admit the truth and that was that. On my return to school the girls jeered and insulted me but had told no one about beating me. The girls next game was make up. I was not the first to suffer it by a long way as girls from my year grabbed boys and applied make up to their faces. This replaced trouser yanking as the fun thing for girls to do to boys and again well over a dozen lads had their faces done and most submitted to it with as much grace as possible. Again the school stood by and when several boys responded by throwing water at the girls it was they who got punished. I was done first in front of about twenty people and I did not resist as they did my face with lipstick and blusher. For the next few weeks they must have done me a dozen times as well as sticking ice down my trousers several times as well. I also remember begging two of them to tell me why they upset me so and what I could do to stop them. They laughed in my face and told me I deserved it and they were going to carry on until I learnt. What I had to learn I have no idea. Other girls were also involved in this and one wet lunchtime a whole group of girls did my face and three other boys and we went to the next lesson with make up on. The teacher went mad and we all got a detention but again the girls were let off.

Part two
By now it was the summer term and also the girls were getting older and more mature and interested in sex. I know I was and I was masturbating an amazing amount. However my tormentors had destroyed any confidence I felt about chatting up a real girl. Up to now anything sexual had been humiliation and quite public. I have to say that was all I expected from them was more of the same particularly as I knew that the all six had boyfriends. Then once more they ambushed me on my way home from school. As last time they had beaten me up badly I was terrified. They surrounded me laughing and demanded to know why I had removed my make up. Earlier in the day I had been forced to let them apply make up to my face but of course as soon as I had got away I had removed it. I did not resist as they pulled me into the field and wood. Once there they set on me and yanked my trousers and boxers down laughing at my embarrassment. Then they pulled at my shirt and got that off before fully removing the rest of my clothing. They had me standing naked and covering my groin as they surrounded me laughing. They called me pretty and that I had a sexy bum and pinched my bottom laughing. Then they pulled my hands away from my groin and my dick was grabbed and tugged. Being young I got an erection and they found it funny. I was pulled to the ground and with two of them sitting on me they took turns to tug and rub my dick as well as play with my testicles. For them it was a laugh but for me it was humiliating but also very exciting. I do not think they expected me to come but I did and they screamed and made yuck noises as I did so. After I had come they wiped me down with my trousers laughing as they made a mess of them and then resumed their game. My dick was tugged and rubbed hurting me quite a lot, as after coming like all men I am very sensitive. I suppose this went on for ten minutes but seemed a lot longer. They got me ready to come again and then gave my testicles a really painful yank to stop me. Then they decided to make me up but instead of my face they covered my groin in lipstick and blusher. Then they wrote rude words in lipstick over my naked body before laughing they left me to dress and get home. Afterwards I was in a state of shock particularly as I blamed myself for coming with them. I think my orgasm encouraged them a lot as well because the next day I was asked had I enjoyed myself and when I shook my head I was told not to be a liar. They left me alone for a few days making me dream that my torment was over from them. Then again they ambushed me and while there were only four of them they had sticks. I did not resist and they got me into the woods once more. This time however they told me to strip and when they threatened to hit me I did so. When I was naked they told me they had heard I was a real wanker and demanded I lay on the ground and masturbated. I sort of begged but a hit on the bottom made me do it. It only took me a minute to come even though again I was made to come onto my trousers. After I was clean they took turns to tug and rub me and this time they made me come again. That was not it as they played with me even more and I had a third orgasm. I was called the come machine by them and after some really painful tugging of my very sensitive dick they let me go but only after they had made up my face and drawn hearts on my bottom with lipstick.

Part three
Thank you for the feedback both good and bad. I do intend to carry on writing because I feel it is doing me good however I am not writing fiction for the titillation of the male readers. As for the girls names and appearance I do not think there names are really important nor can I actually remember who did what as to me they were a horrific gang most of the time however they were in no real order Julie, Sandy, Patty, Dawn, Tracey and Sami. As to their appearance they were okay looking and certainly attracted boyfriends. However it terms of body shape they were more chunky and pear shaped than slim but all six had decent breasts. They were all blonde but as all had black pubic hair I assume now all were dyed. The other thing all six suffered from was bad skin and indeed skin care treatments were very important to them. I think the fact that I never had a spot as a teenager actually made them treat me worse. They were all quite common and smoked and drunk, as I will mention. Academically they were all failures while I was university bound. In fact the effect they had on me did lower my academic performance but when eventually they left I improved immensely. As for the woods the school was at the edge of the town and to get to my house you walked though several fields as you did for the council estate. We all actually lived in a village but the village had merged into the town.

Part four.
After the second naked masturbation session they did not ambush me for nearly two weeks. They still taunted me, ruined my cooking and stuck ice down my clothing but that was all. Mind you that was enough to make my life a misery as I never really knew when they were going to have a go at me. Up to then they had seen my naked but had not got naked themselves or allowed me to touch them but the next attack was different. Once more it was an ambush on the way home from school. They again surrounded me laughing but instead of spitting and swearing they asked me to follow them. The fact they were being nice worried me as they took me to their camp. Then they offered me a cigarette and when I said no laughing they insisted and found my choking even funnier. Then they told me to get naked and without protest I stripped aware of the sticks they had. They rubbed my groin but did not insult me as I stood letting them assault me and hoping to get it over with quickly. Then I was asked did had I heard about going down. I said I had and they laughed and said not a girl doing it to a guy but the other way. I had actually seen pictures of this in a porn mag between two girls. I said I had and they laughed and told me it was my lucky day because I got to practice going down on each of them. I was not keen but they told me that unless I did it and did it well they were going to beat me up so I agreed. Then one of the girls Julie sat on a tree trunk and pulled off her knickers and gave me my first real sight of a genuine vagina. I was amazed because unlike the ones in the magazine it was covered in thick black hair. Julie hitched her skirt up and told me to knell and get busy. I was horrified and did not move but a smack across my bottom from one of them got me kneeling. Julie laughed and told me she would tell me if I was doing it right and to get stuck in. Gingerly I sort of licked her with the end of my tongue as I had seen in the magazine and Julie laughed at me and told me to get right up close. She grabbed my head and pushed me into her and I was amazed by her smell and then by her taste as she pinned me to her. I sort of licked her and she moved me around ordering me to do it here and then there and that is how I found my first clitoris. After several minutes she started to moan and then came even though I was so innocent I did not realise she had and carried on licking until she pushed me off telling me that after a girl had come I had to be extra gentle. The next girl was Sandy and she was really bossy with me. All six had a go and I think all six came but actually I cannot be sure. It took over an hour and by the end my neck and knees hurt and I was feeling sick with humiliation and the girls' taste. Afterwards they were not nice and I was pinched and slapped around before they made me masturbate and then my groin was rubbed and covered in make up as was my body before I was allowed to dress and leave them. They made it clear if I told anyone they would beat me up so I kept my mouth closed. I felt deeply humiliated that they had used me in such a way and worse that I had found it very sexually exciting. Also they had been dressed apart from their knickers while I had been naked. The next couple of days they were really nasty to me spitting on me and kicking me between the legs and pouring ice down my front. This made my trousers so wet I was taken to one side and a teacher talked to me about my problem not a pleasant experience at all. Then they followed me home from school and told me I was going to get lucky again. I protested and begged near to tears but this just made them laugh and soon I was in their base. Again they made me get naked and knell and give each of them cunnilingus. Then for thirty minutes they rubbed and tugged at me and pinched me making me come three times before I was allowed to go. The next evening they got me again and soon had me naked. However to my surprise this time they told me they had got it more comfortable. They placed a blanket on the ground and then told me I deserved a treat. My treat was that before going down on each girl I was to rub and then lick their breasts. This time I remember Dawn went first and I touched and then kissed my first breast as she giggled and called me a sexy wimp. After a few minutes above her waist she lay down and made me get between her legs. First I had to remove her knickers and then I had to please her. This time however Dawn made me use my hands and well as my tongue to make her come as did the other five girls. I found they came quicker and it was easier on the neck and even though they had had games in the afternoon and none of them had showered afterwards I was getting used to their taste and smell. It is obvious in retrospect that the girls set each of these early scenes up carefully talking in detail about it beforehand even though at the time it was a humiliating blur. I was kept naked and the girls only removed or opened enough clothing to allow me access to please them. After this they made me masturbate and to humiliate me more Julie rubbed her breasts in my face while I did so. Then they poured a can of lemonade into my school bag and ruined several books getting me a lot of grief during the next week.

Part Five.
They made me give them all cunnilingus once more and then introduced a new humiliation the next evening. They had got hold of a dirty old porn mag and when they had got me naked something I was now allowing to happen they made me masturbate over a model's picture. Then they showed me a picture of a girl getting lesbian cunnilingus while on top and told me that looked nice. Therefore I was made to lie on the blanket and one after another I gave them cunnilingus from underneath. I found it very claustrophobic and hated it but they, as a gang seemed to enjoy it and with a few exceptions that was how they received cunnilingus from them on. They told me afterwards that they liked it because they were in charge. Afterwards I was made to masturbate again before being covered in lipstick and then allowed to go. The next evening they got me again and this time they had got a pair of old tiny dirty knickers obviously left in the girls changing room. They made me masturbate into these knickers twice once before giving them cunnilingus and once afterward and then stole my boxers and told me to wear the dirty knickers and have them on it school the next day. This terrified me so much I could hardly sleep but I wore them and at lunchtime they sought me out and pulled my trousers down to check I had them on. The knickers were very small and dirty but I was glad I had worn them, as the girls I am sure would have beaten me up for showing any resistance. As it was they spat at me and called me a wimp. They also told me to wait for them by the woods and I did so. My reward as they called it but I did not was to strip and then masturbate once more into the knickers before getting on the blanket and giving all of them cunnilingus. Then Julie who was one of the worse of them undid her shirt and bra and told me I was going to get a special treat for being a good boy. She sat on a tree trunk and made me place my dick between her breasts and rub myself off. This may have been nice and indeed I know it can be but the laughter of the girls as they made me do it ruined it. However I came quickly and was then made to lick Julie's breasts all over and clean up my muck. The girls found this really funny asking did I like the taste of come. From there laughter I gathered that all of them had tasted come before at sometime and did not like it. Then they amused themselves with my naked body and their make up kits for sometime before sending me away and this time I was told not to wear any underwear at all. The next day I was grabbed and had my trousers yanked down to check I was naked underneath. This was seen by about a dozen more girls who found my nudity funny but I think assumed the girls had got my boxers down as well. For the rest of the term the girls forced me to go without underwear on many occasions. This made my life difficult as changing for games was hard and also the zip on my trousers rubbed my groin.

Part six.
Yes I agree the worse thing was not the sexual abuse and humiliation even though that did cause me long term damage but the daily jeering and insults and the threats of physical violence by the girls. The fact that they were girls and I as a man could not stop them made it much worse. Yes I also agree my ready erections and orgasms I am sure made the girls think I was a willing victim. However I cannot see how they thought I enjoyed them stealing and breaking my things and spitting at me. But two years after they let me alone I bumped into one of them in a pub. She came over and talked to me in a friendly way giggling about them being naughty girls with me and it was fairly obvious that she had adapted her memories of what had occurred to make me seem a much more willing participant than I was. As for me seeing one of the girls made me shake in terror in case she demanded anything off me and I was so relieved when she left and had not that I felt sick. I thought I would write no more but it is true that writing things down helps so I will continue.

Part seven.
I think I gave the girls cunnilingus about six times as a gang over the next fortnight. Sometimes it was only four of them sometimes all six but it was a regular after school event. To answer another question the girls did not really watch but stayed around chatting and smoking and keeping look out. By then the girls had found out where I lived and my phone number and several times they phoned me in the evening and abused me over the phone asking me had I wanked yet. Then I was told to come to one of their houses on a Saturday morning. I was very unkeen but did so and found it was Sami's house and that her mother was working. Sami was there with her younger sister and a friend both pupils in the school but also present were the rest of the girls. They took me to Sami's bedroom and made me get naked. Then I was told I was in for a treat as I had earnt to right to see them naked. All six stripped and then I was rubbed and pinched by the naked girls. It was amazing for me to be alone with six naked girls but also very scary as I knew they were going to humiliate me. Then I was told I was to give each of them an all over body massage. What this meant varied from girl to girl with two of them making me literally lick every inch of their skin while with Dawn was really just breasts and cunnilingus. The finale in each case was cunnilingus and I spent I reckon two hours doing them all. Afterwards the girls amused themselves by dressing me in several of Sami's outfits and then finished by literally painting my body. They sent me away without coming covered in paint. Worse they gave me a pair of Sami's old and too small knickers and I was told that I had to wear them to school on Monday with at least eight come stains on them. I got home and clean before my parents saw me but could not masturbate into the knickers. Therefore what I did was when I masturbated on Sunday night I collected my come and smeared it on adding some milk to get the same effect. It certainly fooled the girls who made me remove the knickers at school and give them to them and once more I was called the come machine. That week three times they took me to their base in the woods for group cunnilingus but each time they stayed fully dressed. The next week was half term and no school but my hopes of a week off were dashed when I was told to be at Sami's house on Monday morning. This was a very long morning of abuse and being dressed in girls clothing as well as cunnilingus for each girl. They also made me masturbate in a pair of knickers and a bra during the long morning. I was told to return on Wednesday and was told I would get a special treat. That terrified me a lot as I wondered what was up I knew that most if not all of the girls had lost their virginity's with their boyfriends by now and in the case of Julie and Patty had been with at least six boys and did not fancy them doing it with me. The girls treat was actually a massive session of mutual masturbation. The idea was to see how many times a boy could come while I rubbed them off as well. The answer to all our surprise was eight times even though the last three were not pleasant at all not that any forced orgasm was ever really nice. In fact it was after this that I started to have sexual problems myself. I could get erect quite quickly but sometimes found it impossible to masturbate myself to orgasm and I am sure the girls were responsible for this mental problem. On Friday I was back again and gave the girls cunnilingus and more before they dropped another bombshell. Casually Sami told me that her sister had threatened to tell her mother about my visits. To shut her up I was to go to her sister's bedroom and let her and her friend play with me. I was horrified but a blow between the legs made me agree. The two girls were very young and I found it very humiliating as I was made to lie naked on the bed and let them fondle and kiss me. I came twice during this to the girls' amusment and then they removed their knickers and told me they wanted me to go down as I did with the older girls. I did so and it took both girls ages to come and afterwards I licked their small breasts. Then the older girls got me back and I was made up and abused before being allowed to go.

Part eight.
The first day back at school the girls humiliated me again even though it was not directed at me. They handed me in food tech a girl's sports bra and told me to go to the bathroom and masturbate into both cups. I went off and suffered the humiliation of sitting in a toilet cubicle masturbating into a bra and listening to the other students. I took a long time to come and spread my come into both cups and on my return I got extra work for missing most of the lesson. The girls took the bra and I suspect that some unsuspecting girl who had annoyed them wore it in the games lesson. Then the next evening I was again ambushed by the girls after school but this time they had two more girls with them. These were two of the uglier girls in the school and I was horrified when they joined in getting me naked and then rubbing my naked groin. It is not that these girls were ugly but that more girls were joining in my humiliation. Again I ended up giving all the girls cunnilingus naked while they stayed dressed including the two new girls. I was terrified the number of my tormentors would increase to eight but it did not and these two girls ignored me apart from a few sly comments for the rest of the year. For three weeks it was regular cunnilingus sessions in the woods and regular assaults in the school. The most common was to push things into my trousers this was mainly ice but included ink and on one painful afternoon itching powder. They also took to spraying me with strong cheap perfume and a teacher punished me for wearing it. As well as the girls twice during that time other girls grabbed me and made my face up and stuffed things into my trousers, as I was a known easy target. The girls were making my life very miserable and I desperately wanted to tell somebody but nobody was available and that sense of helplessness used to make me cry at night. In general the sexual horseplay in the school was dying down as both sexes were starting to pair off. My tormentors already had boyfriends none of whom as far as I could see went to the school. Most of my male friends were pairing off with girls in the year below but not me as I was too shocked to do anything like that. I did have a date with Sami's sister but that was a joke and when she told me I was regarded by the girls in the school as a wimp and a pervert and one to avoid I cried for ages.

Part nine
Then in a food tech lesson the girls were nice to me and helped me with my work. This worried me as I expected them to do something very nasty but they did not apart from suggesting that we went to the woods after school. I agreed not that I had a choice unless I wanted a beating but the girls' niceness worried me a lot. I was pleased that it was only the six girls there as I had thought they would be bringing more along. I was taken into then woods and the girls then removed my clothing. However they did not write rude comments on me in lipstick as they usually did and I was confused and concerned. What was up became apparent when I was told that it was time for me to lose my virginity. Again it was a set up as the girls produced packets of condoms. I was made to lie on the blanket and Julie joined me and made me rub her breasts and then give her a minute of cunnilingus. Then I was pushed off and told to get on my back and she gave my dick a brisk rub to get it fully erect and then expertly rolled the condom on it. Then she got on me and raped me. As soon as I was in her she told me not to come until she had done so but to come with her. It was horrid to lie under her as she raped me and my fears about the girls taking my virginity had come true. She pulled me in and out of her and three times I fell out and was pushed roughly back into her. I think that stopped me from coming, as I have to say it felt nice inside her. It took her longer to come on me than it did with my tongue and when she did I did as well but I did not really enjoy it. Next was Patty and she got on me and made me put it in while I was still sensitive not that she cared. As she raped me she held me down and laughed in my face telling me I was in the girl's position. I am sure none of the girls had been on top with a boy before as they were not very good and several times I was bent or fell out. In fact I think they raped me firstly because they wanted to subject me fully to forced sex but also to see what it felt like to be on top. It seemed to be a common view among the school pupils about sex that men went on top so I am sure that they wanted to try it the other way and also as a further humiliation. I did not come for Patty but did with the next girl and then with the last girl who was Dawn. I lay naked thoughout and the girls were definitely fucking me and not me them as was pointed out by them several times. Occasionally they made me put a hand up their shirts and rub a breast but mainly I was made to lie silent and supine as they raped me. Afterwards the girls just laughed at me and asked had I liked being their bitch and love toy. When I did not say yes I was punched between the legs until I agreed it had been the best experience of my life and then I was spat over before being allowed to leave. It was not the best experience but one of my worse and a terrible way to lose ones virginity as I was raped by all six without any concern for me or the affect on me. I did no homework that night so shocked was I and hardly slept. This made it worse the next day as I got a detention. The girls were also particularly rude and aggressive and pulled my trousers down in food tech and filled my boxers with the vegetable peelings. Then when they discovered I had a detention and would miss them they obviously assumed I had done it deliberately. They ambushed me in the corridor on the way to the detention and punched and kicked me around. I ended up pinned to a wall while they took turns to kick me between the legs. Then they pulled my trousers down and dug their fingernails into my dick leaving marks on it that were still visible the next morning. The finale was to have my groin painted and then I was sprayed with perfume and sent off covered in spittle. The teacher was aggressive as well and kept me in for twice as long for turning up late and badly dressed. The beating upset me a lot as I knew that if I failed in any way to serve these girls that would be what I got and no one showed me any concern because as a boy I should have been able to handle myself with girls. I do now wonder what would have happened if I had complained as I nearly did then. What I thought them would have happened was that the girls would deny it or blame me and I would get in trouble and then they would really beat me up. That night I cried again and felt suicidal knowing no one would help me even my parents however I was so tired I fell asleep and was left to survive it as best as I could.

Part ten
The long-term affects of being raped on me were the same. After finally they left school academically I improved but for that year and my first year at university I did not date anybody. Then I started dating but found it difficult to get erect and virtually impossible to come with a girl. This may seem good for the girl as I gave good cunnilingus but girls do not like it when they know a guy has loved them for hours and not come. In fact after several failures I started to fake orgasms as the girls had made me do and while this fooled the girls it made me feel bad. In fact I dated one girl for a year having sex daily or more I suspect and never came once with her at all. I got over this with my next girlfriend. She was a tough aggressive semi alcoholic nervous girl who semi cured my sexual problems but when I dropped her turned into a nasty stalker and eventually I had to go to court over her when she burnt my car out and then assaulted a female work colleague forcing me to change jobs. Currently I have a girlfriend who is not at all good-looking and quite aggressive when she plays rugby or gets drunk. Sexually she thinks I am great but she is multi orgasmic and expects me to come regularly with her so I still fake it most times. One reason for writing here is to try and explain myself to me and maybe then let her know a little more about who I am. Or maybe just explain it to myself. Anyway I do find reading how other people have suffered the same from women helpful, as our problem is one of the great unspoken crimes.
The next evening the girls ambushed me on the way home from school as I had dreaded all day. They were rude and slapped and kicked me as we went to their base. Once there they made me get naked and then play with myself and then I was ordered to lie on the blanket and once more each girl raped me. The difference this time was that each of them made me give her cunnilingus before raping me. This time it felt better I think because it was not such a shock and also I did not fall out of the girls so much. However the girls were very rude and spat at me while raping me and called me the girl for being on the bottom. The next evening it happened again only the girls were even nastier. First I was told I had to buy the condoms and I had to carry at least six of the extra safe, Six studded and six of the coloured ones with me at all times. This was difficult particularly as condoms were not cheap and as the girls used six in one session it cost me a lot of money. Everytime the girls raped me or got other girls too I wore a condom and I think that was why my stalker girl was good sexually for me because she did not insist that I wore one and in fact preferred me not to have one on. Then I was handed an old A cup bra and made to put it on by the girls. They made me wear the bra to school the next day and checked I had it on as well. I hated this and felt very embarrassed particularly as I am sure quite a lot of the girls noticed as the straps were visible though my shirt. They let me go that evening but demanded me in Sami house for Saturday. This turned out to be a full day and also the girls used me more than once. First they raped me and then I was made up and dressed. The girls were all chatting about make up and one of them had a lady shaver. Of course they used it on me and I had my armpits and legs shaved. Then one of them trimmed her pubic hair and soon they all did it. I tried to keep quiet as I knew what was going to happen but it was to no avail and they trimmed my pubic hair to a quarter of an inch. After that I was given to Sami sister and her friend for cunnilingus and mutual masturbation. This I discovered was to make them go away and after lunch a group of boys turned up in the house. These were older boys and I was trapped upstairs naked by the girls. All afternoon I could hear the sound of laughter and music from downstairs. The girls also took turns to visit me mainly for cunnilingus. I think they all had sex with these boys and certainly Julie did because she made me give her cunnilingus after she had just had sex. I was worried about being found out but the girls I think found it great to have me naked upstairs while they entertained their boyfriends downstairs. By now the year group below were getting into sexual horseplay and the next week the girls made me stand outside the girls bathroom and a gang of younger girls dragged me into the bathroom as and ripped my clothes off and laughed at my naked body. The school obviously decided this was enough because for the rest of the week they had staff on duty outside the bathrooms. For me the situation was well beyond sexual play as the girls kept bullying me. Three times that week they raped me in the woods all the time with me naked and them raping me and getting cunnilingus. By now this sort of sex seemed normal. I expected them to rape me and spit at me and insult me and afterwards pinch my body and kick me. I expected to be naked and on the bottom while they took charge and made me do what they wanted. Worse I wanted to please them, as I knew that failure to do my best meant physical retribution. I stayed erect for them however sensitive I felt. I licked them wherever they demanded and ignored their uncleanness. I seemed to come three times once with the first girl then with the third and finally with the sixth girl. However each orgasm gave me little pleasure. It did obviously give me some physical pleasure but the mental torment ruined each and every orgasm I had. One reason was that my timing had to be precise to come as the girl did because if I came first it was so hard to let her rape me to her orgasm. Then the girls conspired to remove even this pleasure. They had noticed my lack of delight at orgasm or indeed when they raped me and told me my lack of enthusiasm was an insult to them. Instead of letting me go they told me I was to show some excitement and told me every time I was now to fake an orgasm with them even if I was not coming. That weekend at Sami's house they got me naked and made me spend over an hour pretending to come. They made me moan twist and sob and if they did not think I was doing it well enough I was pinched, slapped and punched. They had me moan for several minutes before groaning and sobbing in pretend orgasm. Then they raped me one after another and insisted that I fake my coming to coincide with their real orgasm. I did so and passed apart from with Dawn who said I had not put enough effort in. My punishment was a dozen blows on the bottom from a bamboo cane from the garden. I do not remember what happened then but later they raped me again and again I had to pretend to enjoy it thoughout and to get excited. The effect of having to pretend enjoyment and orgasms was not immediate but as they made me do this regularly for two years it became a fixed pattern of my behaviour.

Part eleven.
For the rest of the term the girls raped me in the woods after school probably three times a week at least. Only once did someone turn up some younger boys and Patty who was raping me at the time pulled off me and pushed me under the blanket and then sat on the blanket so we were not noticed. Each time they raped me I was expected to fake excitement and I think that after sometime the girls forgot they had ordered me to fake it and considered that I was enjoying it. They knew I came on average three times with them during a session so what with my moaning and my come I guess they just assumed I was happy to be raped by them. Of course I was not and my work was suffering and I was having trouble sleeping and worse masturbating. In school the girls were still horrid to me spitting at me and kicking and punching me regularly. However apart from a regular tray of ice cubes down my trousers in food tech they did not sexually assault me in school much. However they regularly made me wear no underwear or worse a bra. As well as that they made me perform my fake orgasm routine several times to other girls causing me great humiliation. They also spread the word around all the girls that the reason I hung out with them was that I was gay and/or a pervert. This meant the girls treated me as a joke figure and that increased my isolation and unhappiness. When term finished I hoped for some relief and that maybe next year they would leave me alone. It was not to be because none of them had anything really to do in the holidays. Also their parents were working, as were most of their boyfriends so they were free with access to a house. The first day of the holiday I was ordered to Julie's house a real filthy house I remember. The girls there had got hold of a book of sexual positions and demanded I did loads of them with them. It was the longest time I think I have ever had continuous sex for we seemed to be doing it all day at least six hours I think. Of course as it was six girls to me they had it quite easy. They raped me in loads of different positions comparing notes afterwards on which was best. I remember a row between Patty who had liked doing it from behind and the others. Patty did like doing it from behind but compromised with me on being on top but facing my feet. In fact for me the only sexual position as far as the girls were concerned was them on top and apart from one or two minor incidents that is how it was. Most of the girls had come twice during the day but I had come six times but had faked a lot more and by the end I had a very sore dick indeed. To answer another question the sex was for their pleasure and not mine and even though I was made to fake pleasure that was made very clear to me. For instance they made me go down on them but never licked my dick. In fact from the summer onwards unless deliberately they were making me come they did not seem to care if I had come at all. However any failure on my part to bring them not just to orgasm but to a good orgasm got me a beating from the girls fist and feet and many times if she had it a beating on the bottom with a stick. Thoughout that summer three or four times a week I spent most of a day in one or other of their bedrooms giving them pleasure. It was always a mixture of cunnilingus and rape as far as sex but they humiliated me in numerous ways as well. The worse was always I think for me when I was upstairs and naked and they had other boys downstairs with them. The actual worse day was not actually very sexy but was when I was made to attend Sami's younger sister's birthday party. There were sixteen young girls present and it was a swimming party and I was in a pair of dark red bikini pants of Sami's and the girls had shaved my legs the day before. I was wetted and pinched and poked by the young girls as well as made to participate in numerous silly kissing games in a day of real humiliation as I was treated as a toy. The other things that happened was the introduction of the three some. I found this nearly impossible as I had to lick one girl while controlling my dick as another raped me and it made me fail to get it right with them a lot. Therefore I was beaten and punched by them for this but my failure to cope eventually meant they mainly did me singularly.

Part twelve
I think I have nearly finished with the story because while the abuse went on for two more years it followed the same hideous pattern thoughout. The girls abused me verbally and physically in school and then either in one of their houses or in the woods and occasionally in the girls' bathrooms raped me. I was raped at least once a week and more often three times a week thoughout this time. Not only by the six girls but by at various times eight more girls even though two of these only had cunnilingus from me. The only humiliation I did not suffer was anal sex and why that was I do not know as they tried everything else on me. My work suffered and I was spending most of my allowance on condoms. Numerous incidents come to mind but one does stick it was in the winter and once more the girls had me in the woods. It was snowing and there was ice on the ground. The girls had me naked on a blanket while they raped me one after another. They were all fully dressed apart from their knickers wearing coats, gloves and hats and I was naked apart from a condom. I was shivering with cold as they took turns to rape me but they just found it funny. I think that sums it up for me. The affects of this I have written about but I think that over the last three months I have started to realise that they damaged me even more than I thought.

True story 9

My story started at a party but actually involved two groups of girls or at least I assumed it did at the time even though now I am not so sure as they seemed to work as a team at catching and humiliating me before raping me. It was a standard sixth form get pissed on cider do and I was like most of the people present highly mellowed out. At the party were a whole group from the girl’s school getting pissed as well and I was their victim. A group of four girls were laughing and grabbed me by the arms and suggested we went and had some fun. I just laughed but these four meant it and tugged my half willing body off up the stairs. All four were quite attractive but were more sporty girls than model girls. Their names I found out later were Jenna and Sue both of whom were sort of blondes and surprisingly two redheads called Blanche and Sharon. I had no idea what they wanted as I was tugged upstairs but I should have guessed it would not be fun. Indeed it was not as what these girls wanted was a boy to humiliate. I found this out as I was pulled into a bedroom and thrown onto a double bed and they all jumped me. I sort of resisted as they tried to get my jeans off but then Jenna got my flies undone and her hand in and instead of my dick grabbed my bollocks. She told me to lie still and when I did not gave my bollocks a sort of twist in my boxers making me yelp and I knew I had lost. I went limp and then laughing the other three girls ripped my clothing off while Jenna gripped me painfully by the bollocks. I begged and swore but that just made them laugh and I was told to shut up as they were going to have some fun with me. Then my arms were grabbed and pulled to the top of the bed and Sharon neatly tied my hands together and then to the bed with a long piece of nylon rope. This amazed me and I demanded to know what was up and Jenna laughed and told me they were going to play with me and make me want always to treat women well. Then she gave my bollocks a really painful tug making me yelp again and her laugh at my helplessness. To my relief she then let go and stood back however my relief turned to horror because Sharon was holding a camera. Laughing she demanded I smile and took three pictures of me. Then she told me to get my prick up and I swore at her. However I was helpless and Jenna lent forward grabbed my knob and gave me a few tugs and up it went for a few more photos. While I was erect I was not really sexually excited more worried. The situation was not really terrifying as I knew I was not going to get badly hurt but it was very humiliating and worse the idea of naked photos of me doing the rounds of the girl’s high school made me feel faint. Not that I have a small knob but I did not want it viewed by loads of giggling girls. However a few naked shots of me was only the start of what the girls had in mind for me. Jenna pulled a bag out from under the bed and as she did so Blanche gave my knob a rub telling the others it was cute. This instantly seemed normal as Jenna produced from the bag a bra and a banana. As she did so Jenna told Blanche to let me go as they had to get the good pictures and Blanche gave my knob a squeeze and let me go. As she did so I realised what Jenna meant and felt sick as I saw that the banana was a huge one. The girls grabbed my waving legs as Jenna approached me and I begged them for mercy making them all laugh once more. Jenna positioned the banana at the entrance to my bottom and then thrust it up me. The pain made me scream as it really hurt as it split me. Worse a couple more photos were taken and as Blanche pointed out I was still hard. Then the bra was pinned on me and more pictures were taken. Then Sue got a make up kit and did my face up like a whore for a few more pictures and as she did so both Jenna and Blanche gave me a real good feel between the legs. Jenna told the others I had a real sexy prick and Sharon’s response was to agree but tell her they had agreed no sex with me. Actually I have to say this pleased me as the idea of having sex with them made me want to cry at that moment not a usual feeling for a teenage boy. Jenna agreed but I thought she looked a little sad and said they had better finish me off and get going. First my legs were pulled up over my head and tied with two more long bits of rope so I was fully exposed and then Jenna produced a pot of yellow paint and painted my bottom followed by my knob and balls and all the time pictures were taken of my humiliation. Then Jenna added couple of flowers to the banana in my bottom before she got a pair of nail scissors and gave my pubic hair a close trim the idea of her being loose with scissors in my groin making me whimper. Some ribbons were tied around my groin and then Sharon made me smile for some more photos. I begged the girls to let me go but they just laughed and told me I had to get out of it by myself. Also I begged for the film but Sharon laughed and told me that it was scheduled for a wide audience in their common room. Then they left me humiliated and tied to the bed. I was terrified of being found like I was but unable to get free even though I struggled. Surprisingly I was more worried about what would happen to me rather than what the girls would suffer if I told on them but I think that is the way. They would have got off nearly scott free while my reputation would be finished not that it stood much chance I knew if Sharon showed the photos. Anyway after about five minutes the door opened and two more girls came in. The first was Renn and she was a real grim girl. She had a large pear shaped body, spots and a big nose. The second girl was Toni a large muscular girl with big knockers and a mouth to match. They laughed as they saw me and I pleaded with them to let me go. They sat on the bed on either side of me and neither seemed fazed by the fact I was made up with a painted groin and a banana up my bottom. Toni made me tell them what had happened and then told me the names of my assailants. She confirmed that they had left and also that no one would do any thing about it. She also told me that I was not the girls’ first victim as she had seen photos of a naked lad before tied to a bed wearing drag. This made me feel sick and I begged them to release me. The Toni suggested that she and her friend could see the girls and see if she could get the photos off them. I thanked her and again begged them to let me go and then she smiled and told me that in return I had to be their boyfriend and not just tonight. I did not understand her at first but them realised she was propositioning me. I had no choice but to agree even though I knew it was blackmail. Then to my relief the girls undid the knots and released me and I was able to tug the humiliating things out and off of me. Toni pointed out there was a sink in the room and I washed myself and realised that my clothes were missing and also that I was naked with two fully clothed and obviously amused girls.

Part two
Instantly I blushed and sort of covered myself and both girls giggled and Toni pointed out they had seen me naked and anyway I was their boyfriend and why not. I was amazed as I realised the girls had locked the door and were lying on the bed smiling like cats at me and I knew I was still in trouble. Toni reminded me I needed the photos and they would help if as she said I were a good boy and acted as their boyfriend. I had to agree and when she patted the bed I joined her and as I did so she turned out the light. Then I had my first snog with me naked and two clothed girls. After a few minutes both girls removed their tops and I was made to play with their breasts finding those of Toni a real treat and those of Renn small and a little sad compared to her friends large melons. They started to pet me as I petted them and soon had me very excited and Toni suggested that as I had been badly teased I should get some relief before we made love. I was given no choice as she wanked me off and blew really hard but painfully in her fist. Then giggling Toni suggested that the girls got naked and I petted them until I was ready to make love. Quickly both were naked and now as well as my hands my tongue was in use licking breasts. I petted both of their pussies finding them very hairy and then Toni shoved my head down and I gave a girl head for the first time. I did not really know what to do but Toni manipulated my face until I was doing it right. I licked away until to my surprise she climaxed. Quickly I was pushed between Renn’s thighs and did her in the same way but she demanded I lick deeper and after a few minutes of that she climaxed as well. Then the girls tugged me up and both petted me hard and Toni told me to make love to her but made me promise to pull out before coming, as we were not using contraceptives. I went on her and loved her finding her very exciting and aware that Renn was lying and watching us making love. Toni climaxed and I was right on the cusp and pulled out and she saw and pushed a hand down and with one soft squeeze I blew to her pleasure and Renn’s annoyance, as she wanted me. Toni laughed and fisted me and then gave my knob a wipe with her bra and pushed me onto and quickly into Renn. I was very sensitive after my orgasm and not keen but Renn gripped me hard and off we went with my moans more of pain than pleasure. Renn climaxed quite quickly and I was pushed off and onto my back and the girls told me that this time they were going on top and I was rode first by Toni and then by Renn. By the time she had finished I was fighting orgasm and when I told the girls that they laughed and obviously satisfied they told me to wank myself off. I did so and both helped and I blew with Renn stroking my bollocks and Toni my knob and virtually passed out. When I sort of came around the girls were up and dressed. The other girls had taken my clothing so I was forced to dress in what I could. This turned out to be Toni’s T-shirt and knickers with Renn’s socks and a bin bag and dressed like this I sneaked home. Before I went the girls got my phone number and promised if I stayed as their boyfriend to get my naked photos of the other girls. That night I was shattered and confused both by my humiliation and by my blackmailed sex.
However I saw no other way to escape than to do as Toni and Renn demanded. The next night Toni phoned and got me to invite her out but would not tell me about her day. In fact we were in the pictures when she told me. Apparently Sharon and Jenna had found it amusing that I was now hers and hearing from her that I was a great lover they had agreed to give her the photos. In return she had to do their English essays but worse they wanted me. I asked what she meant and she told me I had to go and give each of them an individual session and also a group session or two. I was highly unkeen and knew I was being blackmailed but with her tongue in my ear and my zip undone and my knob in her hand I had to agree. I asked about Renn as Toni forced my hands under her skirt and I discovered that she was without knickers. She told me that Renn had agreed to give me mainly to her but Renn did fancy me and I was to give her a couple of dates as well. Again I was unhappy but did not protest. I have no idea what the movie was about but Toni came three times and me twice as we petted each other. As I walked her home I was satisfied but she wanted more and dragged me into a local church graveyard and behind a little fence. Obviously she had been here before as she plonked herself down however when she told me to get naked I knew we were not equals. Therefore I got naked and then made love to her wishing I were home in bed. Toni however loved our sex and finished me off with a killer of a blowjob. That night I resigned myself to my fate thinking that Toni was quite attractive and very sexy at least. However I had not just got her but five more girls to serve, as I will tell you if you think it worthwhile.

Part three.
Continuing the true story of my blackmailed sex with the six girls. After my date with Toni the next night she invited me over to her house and I found Renn there as well. After some chatting I ended up in bed first with Toni and then with Renn and finally with Toni once more. As I was loving the girls they told me they were doing the essays for the other girls as their part of the photo buy back agreement and certainly I saw an essay typed up for someone. Then Toni asked was I free tomorrow night and when I said I was she gave me an address and told me to go there by six and then she unzipped me blatantly in front of Renn and told me that the night after I was hers again. I have to say Toni was a real sex maniac and I had never known a girl like her Renn on the other hand was a much more normal if grim looking girl. Renn left after a goodnight kiss and a pet and I was left with Toni who ordered me to get naked and then petted me. I was exhausted but she told me she wanted to play with me and I was now not going to ruin it by blowing. She petted my groin for nearly an hour and used all of her body to play with me and while I did not blow it was exciting for my tired body. Finally her parents returned and I was forced to escape naked and dress in her garden. The next night I went to the address and the door was opened by Jenna. She ordered me inside and I found that Sharon and Blanche were there as well. The girls seemed more reserved and told me that they had agreed to give the film to Toni in return for her work and my co-operation. Then Jenna told me to go upstairs and get into her bed naked. I did so and soon she joined me. She pulled the blanket off and played with my naked body for sometime getting me close. She told me I had a perfect prick and that Toni said I knew how to kiss a girl. I lent forward and kissed her and after a bit she broke off and told me she did not mean on the mouth. Jenna opened her legs and tugged her skirt up and her naturally blonde pussy confronted me. I was amazed as I realised that Toni had told the girls everything about our lovemaking. Still as Jenna sat on the bed I moved down and set to work doing her like I did Toni and soon had her in climax. After a rest she made me do her for a second time and also rub her breasts. Then she placed me on my back and petted my knob and I came onto her right breast. Then after a final pet and kiss she was off and it was Sharon’s turn. Again I had to lie naked while she petted me but then she got naked and showed she had a really nice body. We petted each other and she came on my fingers and then I went down on her. Then it was my turn and again I came in her hand before she made me give her a final climax. The next girl Blanche was the same a lot of petting and one orgasm for me and several for her and by the time she had finished so was I. However Jenna returned and I had go down on her twice more before to my relief I was allowed to go. The next night I was Toni’s and it was a movie with petting followed by me naked in the churchyard and her with her knickers off. Over the next fortnight I went with Toni regularly and also with Renn a few times but also spent an evening with the other three girls. With Toni and Renn it was the works but the other three only used me for heavy petting. Then Toni told me she had the film but she was keeping it as she wanted to keep me as her boyfriend and I did not object. For the next three weeks it was mainly her and a couple of sessions with Renn.
I thought I was finished with Jenna until Toni told me that I had to go with them all again and worse told me it was a group session. I begged but she was adamant and I went to Jenna’s house early in the evening. She greeted me and ushered me upstairs and had me get naked and then we petted until I came in her hand and she had climaxed three times. Then I did the same with Sharon. The two girls returned and got on the bed and Jenna grabbed my bollocks and ordered me to lie still and I did so as Sharon tied me to the bed. Then to my horror I was told it was party time and I was going to be put on public display to the local girls as Toni had my photos. I begged and finally the girls told me if I agreed to return could wear a mask. I agree and laughing they set to work. First it was a blonde wig and then a baby doll nightie was slipped on me and the shoulders resewn up. Then the two girls set to work with some paints and covered my naked body. The finale was another banana up me and then a mask was put on my face. I could hardly see as laughing the girls left me. The next three hours were the worse of my life as well over twenty girls came in and jeered at my body. Worse my body was pinched and petted by a lot of them. Some of the girls I did not know as they were from the girls’ school but two of the girls were in my class. They were nice well-mannered girls called Fiona and Gayle but they laughed at me and petted my knob. However they did not seem to know who I was and when Fiona gave my bollocks a real tug I managed to yelp in a disguised voice. However it was humiliating and horrid to be exposed and played with in such a way. Towards the end of the party a group of six girls badly drunk came in a placed a pillow over my face and then I felt my knob being cleaned and a condom rolled on it. Then four times I was made love to but not I think by four girls but three of them. I came twice during this humiliation and was really glad when they left me. Then Fiona, Gayle and two more girls I knew returned and the pillow was placed over my face. I did not want sex but what they did was far worse. My groin was pinched, tugged and sucked by them and also they removed the banana and then rammed several large items up me including a bottle. Then Fiona told me to behave in future and not to tell lies. It was then I realised they thought I was another guy in the school who I knew had boasted about getting a handjob from her and did look a little like me. Then Fiona set to work on my knob telling me as I had boasted of it I had better have it. She was brutal making me sob an I seriously considered telling them who I was but decided fifteen minutes in her hands were better than public humiliation for years. I finally blew in a painful manner and worse Fiona carried on until finally she got bored and I was left exhausted. Then after a few more pettings the party was over and Jenna and Sharon turned up. The mask was removed but before I was released both girls who were well drunk rammed their pussies on my face. As I did them they rubbed me and I when I begged them to stop they laughed and I was told I had to come. The idea of having a guy so unkeen on coming was great for them but hell for me and for I think an hour I was abused by them and gave them head until finally I had the worse ever orgasm of my life. Then I was released and told to go. But the girls had a final humiliation they had given my clothes to Toni and I was made to get home dressed in just a pair of her knickers. This was probably my low point. I was Toni’s boyfriend for nearly fifteen months until we went to college. I went with Renn, Sharon and Jenna several times as well and suffered three more major humiliations at the girls’ hands that I may share later with you.